1. |
Shadow Burn
05:50
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It all started with a dream
And a wish to be free
And a reason to be loved
How lonely it can be
In a room where my love is supposed to be
At night the feline cries your name
Now I'm lost
And she adopted your beginning to an end
I whispered sick words to a sick God's head
Jannelle
I need you to kiss me to sleep
With limbs entwined
I'm high again
I'm lost in my mind
Writing suicide notes for relief
I purge my brain of graceless thoughts
One day I'll get to you
Night finds me when vulnerable
Send me to Hell
If you're real
The world will never know the pain your heart held
And that suffocates me
I hear my demons
"Suicide. Suicide."
I need my demons
Who am I without lies?
No
You listened and held me
Cradled my weakness
In your arms I was a child again
Beauty incarnate
A face I could never dream
This world will never know your pain
I'll be your voice, I'll scream your name
I need my people here alive to be kind
I want my freedom here for life
Shadow burn
I whispered sick words to a sick God's head
If I could kill us both
I would
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2. |
Mother
08:02
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Naked and cold, Sofia
Mother of the world
You stand before a man-made storm
Your chest absorbs the sword
Mirror of Earth, Anti-Terra
A parallel you still breathes
An author of words to inscribe my wounds
And erase your pain away
Heaven bent at the street curve
The sun projecting a day
Where heart ships sailed to netherworld
Dead love in my arms
Tear drops falling down on your alien shore
In the peaceful sea, you found your dream
Now in sleep I only sink
Scream to the sky in failure
A question and demand
Why did you go?
Please come home
I don't want to grow old alone
Lately I have not been outside
If the door comes open
Time will slip out
November
Remember what it cost
November
No memory is lost
To understand this failure
One must not breathe
To find the only way out
Take the sand to the grave of sea
Suddenly the lights go out
I'm in a distant dream
Where I caress your face
While the symphony plays
Finally I found the words
In one more day she'll know
Don't you go anywhere
I have something to ask
Wait
There's time to think
There's time to find a way
Nothing will halt my will
Tonight we're going home
Wagner echoed through the night
A symphony for fire
Ash and smoke carry me to the sky
An essence without a name
Your hand extends as memories fade
I'll meet you at the gates
Watch law incinerate with flesh
As the light from our spirits
Burns infinitely
Mother weeping on the shore
Bereavement reverie
Now I'll always know why
I'll always know why
Mother sleeping on the shore
In the bed of nature's grief
I'll always know why
Now I'll always know why
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3. |
Soul Bursting
05:47
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Floating down from the bridge
Time became stagnant
There was a place to be
Someone to meet
Something awaits me tomorrow
Years passed in waiting
My blood now turning cold
In the absence of the higher
My world would never come
Night came and
She was there
When day rose
She was gone
There's a world we'll never live to see
Our love will die in dreams
Words never served me well
Eye contact makes me ill
The act is old
Tonight's the night I fly
I'll never wish again
I'll never love again
The end ended
It's finally time to live
Soul bursting
My heart explodes
And paints your speaker's world
Soul Bursting
In this melody I've found my spirit's home
Buildings
Lights so bright
Mirrors up in the sky
A portal in the ground
Send me up
Soul Bursting
You and I
Drifting on the dream shore
A parallel July
I could wake up at any time
So tell me the things you never could say
Right here
Year passed in grievance
Denial keeps me here
Still my subconscious wanders
To a life that could have been
Words never help to say a thing
Gun in mouth I love you true
In the arms of the wind I'm falling
In delusions I find you
I know what they prefer
I know they love it
When my heart is grey
It fills their emptiness
I have a lonely place
And in my lonely space
I wrote the plan
Folded and tucked
In the corner of mind
Soul bursting
My heart explodes
And paints your speaker's world
Soul bursting
In this melody I've found my spirit's home
Soul bursting
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4. |
Streaks
06:07
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Where is the God?
Where is the light to project on thee?
Empty am I
Easy for me to forget the words
That I needed to say
That I needed to make you stay right here
Ecstacy
Empathy
I'm not one to choose
We'll be walking through the black halls of obscurity
Reject the hollowness of heart
Embrace the colors shining
Through the glistening walls of sensory life
Won't you shine on
Reject all love
And feel the power
As your mind embodies a lie
Shut out anything and anyone
Who threatens the lie
Shine on
Embrace the light
Now I'm left here with your crying eyes
And I don't know what to think of
I'm lost and you're here
We are home
Now I'm prepared
I've ingested life
And I feel all that you're thinking of
You're dead and alone
It's okay
So I stare into your crying eyes
And I don't know what to make of it
We are lost and we are here
We are home
I am a man who is lost
From this world I have chosen
Now I'm empty and broken
I love you
Then everything burns
There is a second where
In the back of my mind
I know it's only you
Numb
From all that I have spoken
I love you
But I am dead
Loveless
From a world that is chosen
I need you
But I am dead
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5. |
Cosmic Limbs
07:35
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Save me
I need a tragedy to wake me up
I'm falling evermore
To the moonless place
Save me
From losing the sound of your voice
Stay with me
In my heart
My soul
In this world
Brooding me
Victim to everything
Victim to the pain I inflict
Had to find a place
Far away
A purgatory of the mind
Only to breathe
Unable to see
Blinded in the absence of light
I hope
When this hits
I close my eyes and go to sleep
To find a life with you
Shadow
Why have we grown apart?
Mirror face
Why won't you look me in the eye?
Had everything
My persona
Lost it all in the haze of green
And I'm sorry now
I'm sorry for the drugs
They made me feel okay
I'm sorry for staying high
I felt love inside my mind
Your skin
Glowing from the morning's kiss
Our limbs
Tangled like the clouds' cosmic winds
Something's stalking in the dark
All alone in a bed made for two
And I wonder if it's you
Or a ghost to bring me back home
To the place where I belong
In your arms
I hope
When this hits
I close my eyes and go to sleep
To find a life with you
Shoot me up from this bed in Hell
To the heavens to see your face
I'll kill my self to see you in another dream
Cosmic limbs severed off
Floating by the virgin's eye
Lover I have no soul
Naked before the moon
Before we find my room
Lover I want your soul
Dreams of lust, made up time
Burning in the virgin's mind
Lover I need your soul
Higher, high enough
Dreaming with open eyes
Lover I want you home
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6. |
Serenica
02:57
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7. |
Sage In Yearning
05:39
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In grief I raise this blade
To find a world away
I know you're waiting
Breathing
Glowing
My heart gives into pain
Lost bond love can not save
In strides of failure
Burning
Screaming your name
Recently I've been locked in my room
And recently I've been afraid to move
The past behind me
A future so empty
Time sits still in here
Let me be alone
In reason and truth
I put forth this sword
In longing for you
I erase this world
Fall through the funnel
Swim through memory
To find you in space
Sage in yearning
Side room
Room of dreams
Honey you are my everything
Our memories burning in space
And I...
Can't face it with a sober mind
So I shut out the lights
Now I'm in a world loving you
There's a mirror in truth
Bury me in the earth
I want to die with you
No more fears
No more lying
If I ever knew
The end would come so soon
I would've loved you
How you loved too
I'm glad you'll never know
Just what these weak hands wrote
I stand in defeat
Upon your empty throne
Innocence torn
So we found our drugs
But if we touch right now
Maybe we can find a way out
Through the misery
Into a deep peace
I'm with you in sleep
In a silent dream
Recently I've tried to speak for you
In honesty, I don't know what to do
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8. |
God's Throat
09:31
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Red ghost glare
I see you in the window
No one behind me
No one in front
But it is there
It's something inside me
I've felt it growing for years
And then it goes and then it comes
And when it comes
I worship my fear
My fear
God, tell me now
Where were you
When her throat was torn?
Baby needs love
My baby needs love
I've none to give
Spoke to Satan
Now I
I have no soul to give
Shut the fuck up with the music
I'm losing myself
Killer inside
You're raping my dreams
The keeper of the heart
Lying dead at my feet
With your hand at my neck
On 11/6/18
I couldn't breathe
I was too weak
God
Am I not what you want?
Empty like you made me
Behold the holy ghost peering in
I see it in the window
But it's not what I need
What I need are my desires fulfilled
Down on your knees
You swallow my sorrows
Throwaway
Murderer
God
Remove me from this world
Cast me into the sea
With rocks at my feet
To the ocean floor I sink
Forgotten under waters we once swam
Enter the blue mist calm
There's light behind my eyelids
As my lungs fill and swell
The darkness comes to brighten
As my soul begins to drift
The skies collapse in fifths
The celestial glow will dim
With a throat ripped from Heaven
The plead I made to you
You listened
And you answered
Now I'm broken
In dreams, I see her there
But her eyes miss mine
My voice she can not hear
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Dessiderium Phoenix, Arizona
Solo project of Alex Haddad.
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