Shadow Burn, by Dessiderium

Shadow Burn

by Dessiderium

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americaneurosbmlover66613 Dessiderium manages to truly say something from within, giving a voice to the truly indescribable world of deep depression, loss, and grappling with an unwillingness to continue on. This one-man visionary seems to have mastered the art of putting sounds to the exact feelings he and others have experienced, creating a unique yet highly relatable soundscape of both dread and sorrow. Favorite track: Mother.

yuckysoba YOU & I

DRIFTING ON THE DREAM SHORE

A PARALLEL JULY

I COULD WAKE UP AT ANYTIME
SO TELL ME THE THINGS YOU COULD NEVER SAY

RIGHT HERE Favorite track: Soul Bursting.

mcbiggz This album has amazing and catchy riffs while remaining technical. Lyrically, this album is very sad, but emotionally tangible for those who have suffered a loved one. I've been listening to this album at least once a day since it's release. Don't sleep on this! Favorite track: Sage In Yearning.

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1.	Shadow Burn 05:50	lyrics	buy track
It all started with a dream And a wish to be free And a reason to be loved How lonely it can be In a room where my love is supposed to be At night the feline cries your name Now I'm lost And she adopted your beginning to an end I whispered sick words to a sick God's head Jannelle I need you to kiss me to sleep With limbs entwined I'm high again I'm lost in my mind Writing suicide notes for relief I purge my brain of graceless thoughts One day I'll get to you Night finds me when vulnerable Send me to Hell If you're real The world will never know the pain your heart held And that suffocates me I hear my demons "Suicide. Suicide." I need my demons Who am I without lies? No You listened and held me Cradled my weakness In your arms I was a child again Beauty incarnate A face I could never dream This world will never know your pain I'll be your voice, I'll scream your name I need my people here alive to be kind I want my freedom here for life Shadow burn I whispered sick words to a sick God's head If I could kill us both I would
2.	Mother 08:02	lyrics	buy track
Naked and cold, Sofia Mother of the world You stand before a man-made storm Your chest absorbs the sword Mirror of Earth, Anti-Terra A parallel you still breathes An author of words to inscribe my wounds And erase your pain away Heaven bent at the street curve The sun projecting a day Where heart ships sailed to netherworld Dead love in my arms Tear drops falling down on your alien shore In the peaceful sea, you found your dream Now in sleep I only sink Scream to the sky in failure A question and demand Why did you go? Please come home I don't want to grow old alone Lately I have not been outside If the door comes open Time will slip out November Remember what it cost November No memory is lost To understand this failure One must not breathe To find the only way out Take the sand to the grave of sea Suddenly the lights go out I'm in a distant dream Where I caress your face While the symphony plays Finally I found the words In one more day she'll know Don't you go anywhere I have something to ask Wait There's time to think There's time to find a way Nothing will halt my will Tonight we're going home Wagner echoed through the night A symphony for fire Ash and smoke carry me to the sky An essence without a name Your hand extends as memories fade I'll meet you at the gates Watch law incinerate with flesh As the light from our spirits Burns infinitely Mother weeping on the shore Bereavement reverie Now I'll always know why I'll always know why Mother sleeping on the shore In the bed of nature's grief I'll always know why Now I'll always know why
3.	Soul Bursting 05:47	lyrics	buy track
Floating down from the bridge Time became stagnant There was a place to be Someone to meet Something awaits me tomorrow Years passed in waiting My blood now turning cold In the absence of the higher My world would never come Night came and She was there When day rose She was gone There's a world we'll never live to see Our love will die in dreams Words never served me well Eye contact makes me ill The act is old Tonight's the night I fly I'll never wish again I'll never love again The end ended It's finally time to live Soul bursting My heart explodes And paints your speaker's world Soul Bursting In this melody I've found my spirit's home Buildings Lights so bright Mirrors up in the sky A portal in the ground Send me up Soul Bursting You and I Drifting on the dream shore A parallel July I could wake up at any time So tell me the things you never could say Right here Year passed in grievance Denial keeps me here Still my subconscious wanders To a life that could have been Words never help to say a thing Gun in mouth I love you true In the arms of the wind I'm falling In delusions I find you I know what they prefer I know they love it When my heart is grey It fills their emptiness I have a lonely place And in my lonely space I wrote the plan Folded and tucked In the corner of mind Soul bursting My heart explodes And paints your speaker's world Soul bursting In this melody I've found my spirit's home Soul bursting
4.	Streaks 06:07	lyrics	buy track
Where is the God? Where is the light to project on thee? Empty am I Easy for me to forget the words That I needed to say That I needed to make you stay right here Ecstacy Empathy I'm not one to choose We'll be walking through the black halls of obscurity Reject the hollowness of heart Embrace the colors shining Through the glistening walls of sensory life Won't you shine on Reject all love And feel the power As your mind embodies a lie Shut out anything and anyone Who threatens the lie Shine on Embrace the light Now I'm left here with your crying eyes And I don't know what to think of I'm lost and you're here We are home Now I'm prepared I've ingested life And I feel all that you're thinking of You're dead and alone It's okay So I stare into your crying eyes And I don't know what to make of it We are lost and we are here We are home I am a man who is lost From this world I have chosen Now I'm empty and broken I love you Then everything burns There is a second where In the back of my mind I know it's only you Numb From all that I have spoken I love you But I am dead Loveless From a world that is chosen I need you But I am dead
5.	Cosmic Limbs 07:35	lyrics	buy track
Save me I need a tragedy to wake me up I'm falling evermore To the moonless place Save me From losing the sound of your voice Stay with me In my heart My soul In this world Brooding me Victim to everything Victim to the pain I inflict Had to find a place Far away A purgatory of the mind Only to breathe Unable to see Blinded in the absence of light I hope When this hits I close my eyes and go to sleep To find a life with you Shadow Why have we grown apart? Mirror face Why won't you look me in the eye? Had everything My persona Lost it all in the haze of green And I'm sorry now I'm sorry for the drugs They made me feel okay I'm sorry for staying high I felt love inside my mind Your skin Glowing from the morning's kiss Our limbs Tangled like the clouds' cosmic winds Something's stalking in the dark All alone in a bed made for two And I wonder if it's you Or a ghost to bring me back home To the place where I belong In your arms I hope When this hits I close my eyes and go to sleep To find a life with you Shoot me up from this bed in Hell To the heavens to see your face I'll kill my self to see you in another dream Cosmic limbs severed off Floating by the virgin's eye Lover I have no soul Naked before the moon Before we find my room Lover I want your soul Dreams of lust, made up time Burning in the virgin's mind Lover I need your soul Higher, high enough Dreaming with open eyes Lover I want you home
6.	Serenica 02:57	info	buy track
7.	Sage In Yearning 05:39	lyrics	buy track
In grief I raise this blade To find a world away I know you're waiting Breathing Glowing My heart gives into pain Lost bond love can not save In strides of failure Burning Screaming your name Recently I've been locked in my room And recently I've been afraid to move The past behind me A future so empty Time sits still in here Let me be alone In reason and truth I put forth this sword In longing for you I erase this world Fall through the funnel Swim through memory To find you in space Sage in yearning Side room Room of dreams Honey you are my everything Our memories burning in space And I... Can't face it with a sober mind So I shut out the lights Now I'm in a world loving you There's a mirror in truth Bury me in the earth I want to die with you No more fears No more lying If I ever knew The end would come so soon I would've loved you How you loved too I'm glad you'll never know Just what these weak hands wrote I stand in defeat Upon your empty throne Innocence torn So we found our drugs But if we touch right now Maybe we can find a way out Through the misery Into a deep peace I'm with you in sleep In a silent dream Recently I've tried to speak for you In honesty, I don't know what to do
8.	God's Throat 09:31	lyrics	buy track
Red ghost glare I see you in the window No one behind me No one in front But it is there It's something inside me I've felt it growing for years And then it goes and then it comes And when it comes I worship my fear My fear God, tell me now Where were you When her throat was torn? Baby needs love My baby needs love I've none to give Spoke to Satan Now I I have no soul to give Shut the fuck up with the music I'm losing myself Killer inside You're raping my dreams The keeper of the heart Lying dead at my feet With your hand at my neck On 11/6/18 I couldn't breathe I was too weak God Am I not what you want? Empty like you made me Behold the holy ghost peering in I see it in the window But it's not what I need What I need are my desires fulfilled Down on your knees You swallow my sorrows Throwaway Murderer God Remove me from this world Cast me into the sea With rocks at my feet To the ocean floor I sink Forgotten under waters we once swam Enter the blue mist calm There's light behind my eyelids As my lungs fill and swell The darkness comes to brighten As my soul begins to drift The skies collapse in fifths The celestial glow will dim With a throat ripped from Heaven The plead I made to you You listened And you answered Now I'm broken In dreams, I see her there But her eyes miss mine My voice she can not hear

credits

released June 25, 2020

All music and words written and recorded by Alex Haddad

Drum Programming by Brody Smith and Alex Haddad

Mixed and mastered by Mendel Bij De Leij
Artwork by Justin Abraham
Layout by Malcolm Pugh

Music Written in the years of 2018-2019
*Streaks was written in the years of 2011, 2014, and 2017

This album is dedicated to Jannelle Rosness (1995-2018)

I love you.

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Dessiderium Phoenix, Arizona

Solo project of Alex Haddad.

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discography

Aria

Dec 2021
Shadow Burn

Jun 2020
Rain Gates

Mar 2017
Life Was a Blur

Jul 2013

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